Had a drug test in the beginning of june to be a security guard at the harras casino in tahoe. I got lost in the back hallways of the place and felt like I was stuck in the belly of the beast. When I walked back out onto the floor I saw the people they were hunched over they couldn't look away from their screens.

And Jo sent me a message said, "I'll be in Tahoe just for the night and I'll be going to the beach."
I said, "I'll be busy till about 7pm, but when I get off I would like to see you."
She said, "It would be funny if you told your boss that you had to leave, to meet a girl on the beach."

When I got off I was getting in my car and the sun was going down and everything looked beautiful in the rays of sunlight. I was driving down the highway towards Nevada. I saw the couples on the street and they looked like they were walking in their sleep. I've been doing too much thinking, I wanna know. I don't know what I want anymore. Cause I don't want to be married and get off work and watch TV. But I think about how it would be nice to have someone that was there to hold me as I am falling asleep (every night).
When I got to the beach, there were people there. They were cooking food and they gave me beer and it was pleasant. And I saw Jo, she was looking beautiful and the sun was going down. She was wearing an orange sweatshirt that reminded me of a pumpkin. And the sun was going down again, and the wind was blowing and I wanted to be alone with her, so we went down the beach, and we were walking up. We shared secret kisses. She said she wanted to move away. I said that it was a good idea cause so many people say they're gonna do something and but then they don't then they're stuck in the way that things always are.
And If you left I said that would be so romantic like a summer romance, something like an American Football song. And nobody wants to be stuck in Reno going to the bars getting drunk and talking about how something's gonna happen cause I know that's all that really happens: people sitting around getting drunk talking about how they're gonna do something, but all they do is stay in their routines.

A few weeks later I was down at 40-Mile in Reno again. The one place with this guy with the long beard he makes me feel kinda strange. There's this one time when I went in there when I was really high. I went into the bathroom. I couldn't find the switch to the light. I was in the bathroom with the darkness for so long I could see that the bartender was saying that I was an idiot for not knowing where the light was. When I come outside everybody was staring at me and I felt a mixture of anger and confusion.

But that night I was just drinking. When I was with Jo we were playing pool and it got to a moment when we were honestly drunk and she said to me that some of this doesn't matter. None of this matters because everything that we say might be insignificant a month from now. And I got kind of upset and I couldn't help it. Cause even if it ends I would remember it and I think it would be significant. She said that I'm wearing rose colored glasses and I said to her that I think that you are wearing glasses of shit. But how funny would it be if we both took them off and both looked at each other without delusion?

I might remember this a month from now.
I might remember this two months from now.
I might remember this six months from now.
I might remember this a year from now.

When I finished this song I went down to the kitchen and talked to Jon. I said, "Man, I feel weird about all the things that I said." He said, "He said it sounds like when an unstoppable force meets an unmovable object." And I don't know how I feel about that.

His mom collects inspirational signs. I looked up at the wall. One said that things work out for people that make the best out of the situation that they're in.